Closed Minded People and The Things They Say

So, chances are if you are reading this... you've followed a link from my facebook or twitter. And honestly, I am getting sick of Facebook (again). I am so mentally exhausted by people and their inability to see beyond their safe little place in "their world". Every single day someone posts something against another's chosen sexual preference... Because why? Does that person's choice have anything to do with them? Negative! Does that person choosing to be with someone of the same sex somehow "smut" up their world? Negative...

I come from "The Bible Belt" and as much as I would like to think people truly understand things... they really don't. I previously blogged about how a lot of us were open minded and weren't concerned with these things; and just to prove me wrong, my Facebook page "friends" decided to jump on the anti-gay ban wagon of Doom.

While I am not religious, I have studied religion. I made it a point in my life to know and understand another person's views... I really wish other people would take the time to educate themselves on these things. I get so tired of seeing someone state that "Their God" is going to send someone to "Hell" because of their sexual preference... Again, I may be wrong (it happens), but isn't "Their God" the preacher of Love, Patience, and Understanding? I am pretty sure I read somewhere that He loves EVERYONE, regardless of their race, their age,etc.

When did the "humble masses" take it upon themselves to proclaim "In His Name" that being homosexual is wrong and that is it ok to judge and persecute them? I recall a specific instance in history where someone decided another group of people were wrong for their beliefs and that they should be punished...I can't properly recall all that was recorded, due to the fact that most of the information was in German, but my point remains valid.

It deeply saddens me to think that these people are following in the same footsteps. I am not an activist and I am heterosexual; I obviously suffer from the delusion that what you put out in this world, you get back and that if you cast negatives views towards another... it is only to distract from your faults. I have a deep compassion for all people. Everyone has a story, everyone has a reason for making the choices they make, and ultimately, they have to live with the consequences. NOT YOU!

So stop making a cranial-anal head fixture out of yourself. Take a moment to actually read the book you put all your hopes in... You may just find out that you are taking something pure and twisting it to suit your own needs/views. And if this blog pisses you off, Good! It wasn't intended too; you only get upset or feel guilt whenever you know what you are doing is WRONG... <(￣︶￣)>

Oh, and please feel free to remove me from your Facebook or Twitter... I try to spend my life in the Positive and frankly, all Your "positive negatives" are messing with my Chi.

WTF is Up with Chef Wanted with Anne "I'm not a real chef" Burrell

Ok, Seriously! I love watching people cook, just as much as the next food'centric person, but this show has me questioning EVERYTHING!

As someone who is from the south, lives in the south (til the Aug 4th), and grew up in the south.. what is with all the weird ass statements made towards us on this show? First episode I saw involved a chef who referred to himself as "The Love Chef"... an African American man with 9 kids, who talked about Dirt roads... Now I am not knocking how many kids he has or his ethnicity, but damn it all... We have paved roads ( and yes, indoor toilets! shocking as it may be)... this is about as stereotypical a view of a black man as it could get.. why?

Because COME ON! most people think all we do in the south is make babies... and please for the love of all things unholy... brown sugar on everything?!!! ... NO!!... No!!! NOOOOO!... and guess what he didn't get the spot at the Ole Homestead Steak House... Well shit, was that a shocker?! .. An who the hell let that female in the kitchen in full makeup with FAKE NAILS?! ... that is against all the "rules" in a kitchen..It is unsanitary... those things are a breeding ground for germs! AND... You CAN NOT wear jewelry (except for a smooth band and at most stud earrings) and The Love Chef was sporting bling... Have some respect!

And then... OMG the episode with Todd English's place "Olive's" ... "he's an openly gay chef in the south"... What, WHAT?! Now we are homophobic? ... I know plenty of openly gay people here...unless you are chasing Warren"fuckin"Baetty, chances are, you are going to run into VERY open minded people who couldn't give a rat's ass about a person's race or their sexual preference...Can we please leave the "reality" shows where they belong...


Mhmmm... I just ranted... and you know what... I don't feel any better... I can assure you there WILL be more to come... because unless we stop with this hypocritical bullshit we call "television", we as a species are just going to keep digging a deeper hole...

GROW UP!!!

Sick of the Negativity!

So, I have chosen to move to a new city, attend a new school, and try to make a better life for myself and my children... and the vast majority of people around me are being so negative...

I understand that it isn't going to be easy...nothing worth doing or accomplishing ever is...

I am not looking for a new life handed to me on a silver platter...I know I am going to have to work my ass off to accomplish the goals I have set...There is no need in continuing to point out the obvious...

Negative thoughts invoke negative actions... I am trying to focus on the positive aspects... I get I am moving to a place that is expensive, I get that my children are going to miss me... Who in the HELL thinks I am not going to miss them too... Do people expect me to continue being "useless" until they graduate high school? ... Maybe I look at things differently because I have no parents... nor did I grow up in a family atmosphere...but showing my kids that no matter what happens in your life, if you continue to try and to move forward good things will happen, is way more important that ruffling a few feathers.

My only thoughts are trying to be a better person... I am a good mother and my kids understand what is going on.. how is it possible for a 10y/o and an 8y/o to understand that I am trying to improve our lives and the adults think I am going insane... Do they not realize that all they are doing (besides hurting me) is making me more and more determind?

My main goal was to improve my life thereby improving my childrens' ... but NOW... now I just want to make all those people with their negative ideas and attitudes eat their words...Just because I am southern does not mean I have no idea how the world works. I may speak slower, I may be polite and show respect, but all these things make me a better person...

I firmly stand behind the statement " Anything worth having, is worth working for." and if you are going to continue to try and bring me down... I WILL brush you off and keep on walking!!

Self Reflection in the AM

I woke up this morning with "You" on my mind...
It seems like we've been apart since space became time.
Your laugh has grown distant, your eyes, how they've dimmed...
I have a feeling you've lost yourself...
Now where shall we begin..
You use to be carefree, hopeful, a gas
Now all you do, is fake smile and fake laugh
Somehow I think you've noticed
Perhaps you've realised...
Just how much the fire
has died within your eyes.
You were my ever-constant,
The one whom I turned to..
But now you're just a stranger...
A person I once knew...

Wrote this about myself... because I have always followed others advice...other people's opinions...and I am done!

Moments in Time where the Music breaks through

Sitting here on a rather dull and almost over Thursday... Browsing through my Itunes, Youtube, and other things (pandora, slacker, etc) ... Every song you hear is a teleportation device for a moment in your life...I can assure you that there are songs that take you back to that first love, those moments where you thought you were dying inside only to be reborn...

Music is such an amazing experience...As a poet I can hear the lyrics...as an artist, I can pick out each instrument; each harmony... I feel the music move through me and thus I am moved.

My first memories are from the 80's, Big Hair and Epic ballads...then the 90's came and there were poetic songs and *gasp* white rappers...but my favorite pieces are from centuries ago (Opera, classical) or those love songs that touch every heart no matter how old...Mr Mister Broken Wings...forever will touch my heart....

I am open to change, I am open to new things..and I know "they" are not new, but The Mountain Goats are taking up ALOT of my time now...so is Lily Allen...I love ALL music...It is all an expression..even if the person singing it did not write it...they are moved by the idea...

"Unique" Perceptions and Disillusionment

Today was another one of "those" days... you know the kind..the one where only a kind word...or a nice stiff...drink improves the mood. Mmmm martini...just the way I like it...Dirty...extra dirty ;)

             Make my martini look like straight olive love in a glass!
After dealing with far to many issues while setting up things for my educational growth...followed by an adventure into mechanical failure land, I decided a little alcohol induced disillusionment was the way to go!

I have recently started playing around with Instagram...loving it greatly right now! My favorite photo thus far is this one above. I absolutely adore the way this turned out. There are so many stories that could come from this simple picture. Wouldn't you agree?