So, I have chosen to move to a new city, attend a new school, and try to make a better life for myself and my children... and the vast majority of people around me are being so negative...
I understand that it isn't going to be easy...nothing worth doing or accomplishing ever is...
I am not looking for a new life handed to me on a silver platter...I know I am going to have to work my ass off to accomplish the goals I have set...There is no need in continuing to point out the obvious...
Negative thoughts invoke negative actions... I am trying to focus on the positive aspects... I get I am moving to a place that is expensive, I get that my children are going to miss me... Who in the HELL thinks I am not going to miss them too... Do people expect me to continue being "useless" until they graduate high school? ... Maybe I look at things differently because I have no parents... nor did I grow up in a family atmosphere...but showing my kids that no matter what happens in your life, if you continue to try and to move forward good things will happen, is way more important that ruffling a few feathers.
My only thoughts are trying to be a better person... I am a good mother and my kids understand what is going on.. how is it possible for a 10y/o and an 8y/o to understand that I am trying to improve our lives and the adults think I am going insane... Do they not realize that all they are doing (besides hurting me) is making me more and more determind?
My main goal was to improve my life thereby improving my childrens' ... but NOW... now I just want to make all those people with their negative ideas and attitudes eat their words...Just because I am southern does not mean I have no idea how the world works. I may speak slower, I may be polite and show respect, but all these things make me a better person...
I firmly stand behind the statement " Anything worth having, is worth working for." and if you are going to continue to try and bring me down... I WILL brush you off and keep on walking!!

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